okay here's an attempt to be organized, or at least sound organized, for a reason which i currently have no idea about (= i have no reason to be organized).

#1: nafa concert.
withdrawal symptoms, again? well, was to be expected, actually. was hyperventilating extremely badly before the rehearsal and concert, 'cos i, being the senseless person i was, decided to go for 3rd language on the hope of getting exam revision tips. [truth was, we spent only 15-20 minutes going through the tested bits, and the bulk of the lesson doing something new. -.-] and the day before i discovered wrong notes in those maddening (but deeply satisfying, provided you can do it)octaves, and i just couldn't get them right. anyway, on the actual thing itself, i guess it wasn't that bad? but hey, i've got really low expectations, so we'll just see what fls has to say during my lesson tomorrow. [edit at later date: sure enough, it was bleargh.]

hmm, my dad says that everytime i go on stage there'll definitely be someone who coughs in the middle of my performance. funny how i never notice. XD

backstage was, funny. (haha, it is said that the most fun bit of any nafa concert is, oddly, the time when you're backstage.) okay, other than someone who decided that it was really fun to squirt out all the water from my bottle. but at least, the water didn't end up poisoned with soap or anything, so i guess it's fine with me. X) oh, and i found that pacing up and down helps calm me down - yeah pacing up and down like an angsty, disturbed idiot. of course, i can't do it in a roomful of people, otherwise they would think i was severly mad.

[but anyway, i sort of admire the young ones, and perhaps everybody else. as in, they can fool around talk normally and stuff before their performance, and still do well for the actual thing. my brain starts conking out on me two items before mine, and by the time i stand up to get ready to go on stage my legs are as good as jelly. but if i just let it all go and take it as it comes, i'll probably end up playing something tuneless, out of tempo, or both.]

next time i'm definitely going to try the extra 8 keys of the bosendorfer! haha, wonder how it sounds like. as in, right now my idea of the range of the piano is defined by the 88 keys normal pianos have, and i can't really imagine anything beyond the usual 88, so it'd be really cool to plonk on those 8 keys. (:

#2: today.
syf rehearsal @ vch! :D it's been a long time since i last set foot at vch, and gosh, i miss the atmosphere there terribly. okay, esplanade has better facilities, better acoustics and stuff like that, but i like vch for its cosiness, and that's something i daresay esplanade doesn't have. i mean, the esplanade concert hall is absolutely humongous, and somehow i think it sort of spoils the connection between the performer and the audience? consider yourself stepping on this particular stage, looking out at the audience in their seats, and all you see is this whole sea of people (or in my case, a case of pathetic eyesight, a mass of, uhm, black). i think that's really scary. my opinion, of course. (: [but actually, no, maybe not chopin in the salon either.]

and ahh vch backstage! (: (it would seem that i have a weird obsession over the backstages of concert halls.)

anyway, i like our pieces for syf! :D although i am still hopelessly biased to itsuki. it's all about putting in emotions (and being less logical for once, in msloo's words), and blending, and i guess when you do it right, the effect is truly overwhelming. funny how everyone always tends to pay attention to flashy, quick, virtuosic stuff and somehow neglect those emotive pieces that are true beauties. perhaps it's just the insatiable human quest for adrenaline? nevermind.

hmph, i got so close to playing the steinway. steinway, i stress, steinway.

i'm getting more and more worried about auditions by the day. somehow my voice is always either 1) lacking in resonance, 2) pathetic in pitching or 3) both. and i've got a feeling i've got more problems than i think i have. of course everyone wants to sing for syf (i mean, it's going to be another 2 long years before we get the opportunity once again), myself included, but i have absolutely no idea whether i'm going to make the cut. or not. and i don't think missing an entire week of practices during the march holidays is going to help matters any further.

hee, this post is still so music-ish. X)

#3: let's reply to tags! :D
madeline: yeah yeah i know! and she knows who i am already; thank goodness she's still writing (:
shona: thankyou! yup i'll definitely put in my 200% in everything i do. :D
samantha: uhh, not really mugging actually. just a brief look-through? and uhm, i have to go hunt down your blog url. i only remember it being empfin-something voll. forgive my poor memory for german terms, but the only thing i can remember is empfindsamkeit stil (suspicious spelling), and i don't even know what that means.
yinleng: hmph, that implies that my previous one was disgusting. ohwell, never intended it to be particularly pretty anyway. haha thanks for your encouragement as well! (:
deborah: (i assume i don't exactly need to reply to your tag? haha. :D uhm, no offence okay!)
charmaine with her particularly long rant: oh come on, pity me. i have a mishmash of around 6 violin pieces jumping around in my head, which is much worse than having the entire 7 minutes of buckaroo holiday on an endless loop ('cos you see, the entire 7 minutes of buckaroo holiday is a coherent, understandable piece, whereas a mishmash of random violin pieces means you get weird passages coming after one another that do not link up in any way). and don't worry, i'm more than used to your (ahem) flooding (ahem) of my tagboard?

wheeeee :D

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